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I'm excercising my option not to write a tabloid this month. It was four years ago on election day that I found out I was HIV+. Traditionally I've skipped writing in November unless I really felt like it. Right now I have stuff I want to write about but here it is already December 1st and I  need some more processing time. It can wait til the December issue.
   It's hard for me to remember that I'm supposed to "fight" this "disease" when this disease has resulted in so many positive changes in my life. I wrote this last week: "I'm just really happy and appreciating this moment. It feels like I've come a long way. I feel so healthy these days, too. It's hard for me to remember that I have HIV and it's supposed to be a bad thing. It's only brought good things to my life---given me focus, clarity, appreciation, independence, strength, and I hope it's made me a more compassionate and loving person, because those are the most important things of all." I'm remembering the voice that came into my head immediately after I was told of my diagnosis: "It's a gift, you'll see." Where did that voice come from? Who said that? I have no idea, but the voice was right.
   On a lighter note (thank God), we've finished the second episode of "Show Show" and I'm very happy with what we've put together. I'll give you more info later. Anyway, I wish you all a very happy holiday season full of friends, love and laughter. Yours, Blue